Anger

Every since I can remember I have had a kind of quick temper. I just so easily get ticked off a certain things. I have learned to control my temper much better than I use to be able to. It was like one minute I could be happy and having a good time and the next minute something could change my whole attitude. Sometimes I feel it is just better to get certain things off your chest. At one point in time I used to just hold my peace when something made me mad, but that only made me a more angry person. I would just hold things in and when I finally blew off steam I would explode. I hate being angry because I sometimes say hurtful things to people that just really changes my relationship with that person. Its like I didn't use to think at all when I was mad I just snapped off. My uncle use to have little "talks" with me to so call calm me down. He would always say that "a angry black man either ends up dead or in jail". My uncle use to have a quote for everything. I have learned to manage my anger much better, but I still sometimes find myself snapping off. It's like I just have to let people know what and how I feel and express my emotion at the same time. My grandmother always told me that I wore my heart on my sleeve, but I never really knew what that meant and never really cared. I knew I use to have bad anger problems because any little thing would make me extremely angry and I would take it to a whole new level. I think I just need to pray for patience. I am not saying I am a bad or abusive person. I am actually a sweet-hearted person. I just get really mad sometimes, but I don't really hurt anyone, maybe with word. I hope I can gain more self-control while I am steady growing as a person. It could really help.